I wish I was one of those sophisticated people, who knew sophisticated things and worried about the state of the world.
I wish I could understand how people think.
I wish I could become telepathic.
I wish I would know what God thinks of me.
I wish I would understand why I am what I am.
I hate myself.
I hate this world.
I have moods.
I ponder my future.
I realize my naivety.
I regret, feel guilty and redeem.
I live within the "what if" state.
For mere seconds, I am human and for mere seconds I understand everything and nothing. For mere seconds, I live not knowing how or why, for mere seconds I question my existence, for mere seconds I declare my insecurities. For mere seconds, I become myself and someone else. For mere seconds, I am.