There's restlessness, uneasiness, rejection, discomfort...
I trust my instinct, I believe that my gut is one of the best measure of any decision-making I do in my life. I trust my gut more that I trust my 5 senses. In all the situations that I trusted my gut I won things I didn't even know existed and in those other situations where I ignored my gut, I found myself depressed, annoyed and alone. It might not make much sense and believe me I hate not having logical reasoning for what I do, but sometimes it doesn't need logic, it just has to be right.
There's a lot of doubt and there's the possibility of failure, but I always say "No risk, No fun", add to this the fact that I would never let myself fail and even if I fall down, I always know that I can rise again.
So, yes, I know it's crazy, I know there are no guarantees and I know things might not work out and might become more lost than I already am, but I don't care and I don't mind anything, really. I know what is supposed to be done and I am trusting my instinct. I won't calm down and I won't be patient, because I am sick of being patient, I am sick of waiting and I am sick of accepting things just because they exist, I am sick of being on the sidelines and I don't intend to be anymore. I want to start my life, I want to feel the rush of blood to my brain and I want to live on the edge(of reason, of logic,whatever...) and I just don't care what happens, I am don't want to think about the consequences.