Tongue-tied

If it weren't for hands, I wouldn't be able to explain myself right now. I am completely unable to utter a single word and every time I try it seems like a great effort.

Things that happened:

• Real player, my go to media player has become (I downloaded the new version) really bad.
• A friend of mine has shocked me out of this earth yesterday, but to make a long story short, because of her I am dreading the end of 2009.
• I am driving like S*** these days.
• I am about to get the flu.
• Next week, work is going to be very hectic.
• I am unable to define life.
• Ants are going crazy.
  

I don't feel bad, sad or depressed. I just feel strange, like I am on the cusp of something when I am actually not. I keep going back and forth between the subjects and still I find no logical answer or a point that can actually give me peace of mind.