I am

Annoyed, confused, ignorant, forgetful but not of the right things, harboring disappointed hopes, alone, bored, powerless, unsafe, left, without a cause, unknowing, empty, in love with hateful things, lost, unresisting of hurt, forever fooled into existence, unbelievably believable, unbelieving of others, in darkness during day, insensible, overly pensive, gullible, deceived by thoughts of entertainment, rarely acknowledging of felicity, attached to worthless things, unworthy of the life I am wasting, praying for truth, obligingly trapped within a universe of my own doing, unsure, attempting to plan the unplanned, foolish, naive, obviously unsophisticated, indefinable, worried, suffocating, in need of screaming, admiring but not admired, proudly modest, modestly proud of things I do not own, in control of nothing, deeply shallow, awkwardly normal, talentless, helpful to none, unrefreshingly honest, eagerly silent, silently audible, disconnected, hardly there or here, in the midst, the beginning of nothing, bearer of vacuum.