Monday, December 29, 2008

Hello,my name is Cesario and I

have commitment issues. Seriously I do.
When I first bought my cat, I wanted to return him, when I was in college (3rd year), I was considering a transfer, I sabotaged many friendships over the years and my family have to literally make up a fight for me to actually communicate correctly.

Right now, I keep having this thought of abandoning my life, I am on the fight or flight alert. I have to remind myself that it's good to be stable, that people live all their lives to get to stable, that steady progress is nice, that having a routine is great, that depending on a constant in your life is plausible. I have to remind myself that a lot don't have that, that just a few hundred kilometers away, people are getting killed for stability, for a place to call home.

I shouldn't run away, but I haven't started fighting yet. I will, but right now I will just go on watching grey's anatomy, although I don't actually like it, but I got it from a colleague at work and I just can't stop watching it. It's crazy.

8 comments:

Shimaa Gamal said...

Grey's anatomy is an addiction :) I can't stop watching it too. And it really helps with all kinds of issues not only the commitment related ones :)

Which season are you watching?

Cesario said...

It was.
I watched up until episode 12 in season 5 and then I deleted it from my hard disk.
But I think grey's anatomy just confuses people more and I hate Meredith.

Shimaa Gamal said...

Why do you hate Meredith? :)
Too many people seems to hate her :) She must be voted the most hated on grey's anatomy :)

Cesario said...

I don't know, maybe the fact that she's so helpless, it just makes me sick. And her stupid affair with Derek and his stupid hair. It is all so annoying. I like Christina though.

Shimaa Gamal said...

Nooooo, not McDreamy :) :) :)

I like Christina too, I like her expressing expressionless face :)

But I like Meredith. She reminds me of many "pick me, choose me, love me" situations :) but this is another story :)

Cesario said...

I would like to hear this story :D maybe you should blog about it, seems interesting.

Shimaa Gamal said...

Actually I have it on my drafts :))
Are you a mind reader :)))

I will let you know when I post it. But please don't hate me as you hate Meredith :))

Cesario said...

I would never do that :D, I think it's easier to hate fictional people. I think if Meredith did exist and I was a person in her world, we'd be friends.
Anyhow, I am really excited about this post :D

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