have commitment issues. Seriously I do.
When I first bought my cat, I wanted to return him, when I was in college (3rd year), I was considering a transfer, I sabotaged many friendships over the years and my family have to literally make up a fight for me to actually communicate correctly.
Right now, I keep having this thought of abandoning my life, I am on the fight or flight alert. I have to remind myself that it's good to be stable, that people live all their lives to get to stable, that steady progress is nice, that having a routine is great, that depending on a constant in your life is plausible. I have to remind myself that a lot don't have that, that just a few hundred kilometers away, people are getting killed for stability, for a place to call home.
I shouldn't run away, but I haven't started fighting yet. I will, but right now I will just go on watching grey's anatomy, although I don't actually like it, but I got it from a colleague at work and I just can't stop watching it. It's crazy.