Slopes

It constantly surprises me, the ability to decide, to make life-altering decisions on the basis of a whim or deep depression, really my life has become a series of slopes, ups and downs. One day I decide to do something with my life, then it all crumbles down because simply it's not available in our beloved country, as such I fall into a serious case of depression, then a couple of days later I make a new decision, and so forth.
I've become the moodiest person in the world, but to my brain it just makes sense, it's like some days the sun sets in my mind and others it just rises and shines like never before.I just hope that soon I'll become more sane.
In case you're wondering , yes, today the sun is rising in my brain.