It's natural , right?? To brag every now and then. We've all done it at one point in time, brag about our newest possession, acquaintance, composition under pressure or even a right decision made at the right time.
I don't like to brag even when I do something right, it makes me annoyed. Yet, I did that same thing I hate yesterday, it was in defense of a decision I've made and I was making a point.
Even though during the act itself I felt uplifted, empowered and confident, on its ending and others leaving me alone I was left with an empty feeling. I was also overwhelmed with guilt and fear that maybe whatever good ability I've had that enabled me to make the right decision would disintegrate; that the loss of common sense would be my punishment.
I have no idea how people brag all the time about their accomplishments and abilities, how they can stand the exuberant feeling of guilt that washes over you afterwards. It's exhausting and yet people do it all the time. Amazing, huh??
On another very different note, I've been taking a writing class and I'd like to share with you a piece of writing I've done in class. It's about metaphors. I'd like to know what you infer from it, because even though I wrote it, I don't really know it's purpose. I'd be grateful.
It's a bit childish, but I am not really good with metaphors.
"If you were my pen, I would want you to be more than one color in life, but I would be the only one who knows your true color. I wouldn't want to lose you within the clutter of my bag, but given my nature, I wouldn't guarantee it. I would only write the things I wanted to keep forever so that you wouldn't run out of ink and I would only write them on sturdy paper."